i'm in a very critical time in my life right now. and i decided to pour my heart into it.. i have worked harder at this than anything i've ever done. i really really really want this to follow through, because if it doesnt.. then i'm afraid i might have lost hope. this might be the final blow that brings me to my knees. but at the same time, if it does follow through, this could be my saving grace. so, yes, i would say this is a very critical time in my life right now.
maybe not for always, but would it be too much to ask to be numb right now?